Several things, some depressive and confusing, some not. Read at your own risk~ :'D

1. The laptop broke a little while ago, and thankfully it wasn't mine, otherwise it'd be years before I'd have been able to get another computer. So...new desktop has been acquired~ It's a miracle, I swear U: Even though it's a bargain-bin one and the processor is slower than a dead snailturtleworm xD

2. I'm trying to get home for this summer (visiting, at the very least,) current hope is to go around mid-June. Problem? I'm terrified of a million and one things when I think of home, and yet I miss it so desperately and am sick of rotting here...Also, I don't know if I'm just being joked with or led on when I'm told I'm allowed to go home, too. Something tells me it might just be a very nasty joke. \o/ And there's always that part of me that wonders if this is the right choice, regardless of how messed up my life is currently, anyway. The truth is, if it were up to me, I'd go home to NY, but not back to my family's apt. That'd be the best possible outcome for me...but that cannot happen, so...:'D I tried making a pro/con list for both places, and that didn't work lol. Since both places cons way outnumber their pros, just in different areas lol.

3. I'm really scared about something. Like, so scared. And worried. And I have nobody to turn to about it, because I don't want anyone knowing aside from cryptic words like this, of which I hope nobody can see through lol. x,D;;; I'm sure lots of ppl would consider this fear/worry petty at best, but I CAN'T HELP IT LOL. Like, seriously. Whenever I allow my mind to worry about this, I want to cry. Like badly. I guess I deserve it though, this is some sort of divine justice, I swear. :'D;;

4. I've lost some weight! YAAAAY!!! 132lbs now (from 135, which has held steady for like a fucking year, more or less D8 ), baby ;D I'm so happy haha! I just hope I've started losing steadily again~ Please, please! Do want to be 100lbs. DO. WANT. |D

5. I'VE MISSED PEOPLE ON HERE. SO MUCH. SO SO MUCH <;____;> I WISH I WAS HAPPIER AND LESS MESSED UP, SO I CAN STOP BEING A PIECE OF SHIT FRIEND TO YOU ALL. <T__T> I used to be a reliable one, I swear. And one that was around often. But not anymore, and it's making me lose ppl I care about...<.3.> If you ever think I no longer care or want to speak with you, it's the furthest thing from the truth in all this life. I swear it :'D I have to bite my lip til it bleeds or risk bawling like a baby when I think of what a bad friend I've become, and how ppl must think of me now...Like, I know I come across as a bastard now, or like very uncaring. Or worse, FAKE. Because when I /do/ come around, I try my best to make up for my absence as best as I can, before I inevitably vanish again. And that kills me <@@> But when I try to fix it, my energy wanes after so long, and it goes back to the same old bullshit on my end...<T__T> But, I also know there's no excuse for being a bad friend; so I take the responsibility of it wholeheartedly. <.__.>

6. I've got some really old (Read: Like a year for some ) WIPs that I'm starting to finally finish up. But, of course, their skill is kinna...bleh X,D But I'll try to fix them as best I can and post'em. Get some of the dust and cockroaches off my gallery...AH GOD I SEE ONE RIGHT NOW. *STOMP IT* B|

7. New ear piercings sooon~ (I know I've said this before lol.) But I couldn't get them, because I got some nasty sort of plague (lol) on my earlobes for a while. It happens from time to time, because of badly gunned piercings when I was really little, and of which I let close up and trapped a nasty infection in them that NEVER fully healed So...It acts up, off and on. And, unfortunately for me, it acted up just as I was gonna get my new piercings lulz. FINALLY it's going away again though, so...as soon as they're a bit less messed up, I'm racing to do my 2g piercings C: /can't wait.

8. ...THERE IS NO 8

9. OR 9 8D

10. There IS a 10 though xD /whut. Anyone here a fan of the bands Black Veil Brides and/or Blood On The Dance Floor? U: If so, tell me, we can spazz about them together~ /needs someone to spazz with about these bands LOL. I'm thoroughly starved for mutual flipping out over Andy Biersack or Jayy Von Monroe LOL X,DDD LIEK SRSLY. SOMEONE READING THIS MUST LOVE ONE OF THEM TOO, TO THE POINT OF RABID PRAISING AND "WROHWROHWORHWOH"ING? RIGHT? RIGHT!? XDDD Also, if you hate the bands or whatever, please don't comment telling me "they suck" blabla. It's okay not to like them, but I adore them (especially BVB), so...to do that, would just be trying to start an argument (which wouldn't happen anyway, but...) D: You can say they're not your thing, but don't be a troll about it Thank you :3

So that's it, for now :'D I've returned from another random hiatus, as is obvious x,D And will try to answer messages/comment on stuff/etc. ASAP :'3 Dunno if I'll be able to get to everything from everyone, but I'll surely give it my best to at least get through some of it all :'D

P.S: I'VE MISSED YOU GUISE. HOW ARE YOU? WHAT'S UP? TALK TO MEEEE~ XD